Recently I've been thinking. There's a girl I like in school, yet I've never had the courage to tell her that. Basically we get along quite fine, just that I like her, and I don't dare to tell her that. This is unlike me, I'd just tell the girl I like her and just wait for an answer, no matter good or bad. That was in the past. I'm even scared now, of rejection. Scared that she doesn't feel the same for me as I do for her. I used to stare rejection in the face, but now, I've lost many things. My courage/idiocy. I used to say things before thinking. Now I don't know how I even speak. I don't know if it's a good thing. I've changed, really.

In other news, 3rd November, I'll be performing at the Esplanade, yet again. Last year, 25th April, I performed there too, with the Maris Stella Chinese Orchestra, to celebrate our 50th Anniversary. This year, I'll be performing with the Henderson Secondary School Concert Band. I know what to expect. Thankfully. And there's going to be the part where we move instruments. Last year, my section had 4 people. 4 people to move the entire percussion section. And I had to sit with the instruments back, in the back of the lorry. The good thing is that 4 people is just nice, the dressing rooms are rather small, as what I remember from my last visit. Or maybe it was just me. Toilets in there are huge. HUGE I TELL YOU.

"A Ponzi scheme is a fraudulent investment operation that pays returns to separate investors from their own money or money paid by subsequent investors rather than from any actual profit earned. The Ponzi scheme usually offers returns that other investments cannot guarantee in order to entice new investors, in the form of short-term returns that are either abnormally high or unusually consistent. The perpetuation of the returns that a Ponzi scheme advertises and pays requires an ever-increasing flow of money from investors in order to keep the scheme going."

My new ambition. A successful Ponzi scheme. I'm becoming some sort of sociopath.

In other news, I gave up. On something obvious. I just gave up.

Back to school. Again. In addition to my six subjects, i'll be taking a maths for my o's. Which I'll be teaching myself, and a bit of tuition. Beause frankly, I'm sure my combined humanities will be screwed up. These days, I don't know why, it's like everyone else around me is sad, and i'm the only one who seems to be somewhat alive and kicking. I don't know, I'm still waiting for her, for how long more, I don't know, but one thing's for sure, she'll accept me someday, no matter how long it may take, I'm waiting. For sure.

I have a goal now. To get into JC. Today, I learnt, that I should never be contented with what I have. If I'm the first in class, I must aim to be the first in the level. And if I attain that, to be the first in the nation will be my next target. I know that if I aim this high, I have to work hard for it. For real.

To-do.
6. Get into JC
7. NUS or NTU

4 minutes left to type this post, at lan, only have 3 bucks so can only afford one hour. lately i've been pondering my existence. why am i here? to change the world, or be part of it? i want to change the world. for the better or for the worse. it matters not. like maybe converting the whole of singapore to communism. or building a religion around myself.

To Do List:(Now- Forever)
1- Communist Political Party.
2- Religion around myself.
3- 6 points in O's.
4- Love.
5- Grand Master in either DJ Max Fever or Portable 2. (Done)
6- Finish this list.

results.

EL:
Comprehension 15/25
Summary 18/25

Maths:
Paper 1 20/40
Paper 2 33/40

Science:
Bio 35/50
Chem 28/50

Humanities:
History 16/25
Social Studies 14/25

CL:
Situational 14/20
Composition 33/50
Paper 2 73/110

DnT 60/100

Not bad, considering it's my first SA.

Manchester United to beat Barcelona!

And I hope Rooney scores the winning goal.

Sup doods. Back on the computer. Just created facebook. Using my msn as address. Add me. :D

Getting back most of my results tomorrow. And I'm really happy, for she and I are friends again. Also I'm hoping we could be more, but friends, is good enough for me. I'll never give her up again.